It's over

My time holding my baby girl as she nurses away is over. Yesterday was the first day that I didn't get to hold her and know that she is getting the best nutrition I could possibly give her. I still feel really uneasy and yet excited at the same time.


I do know that she was ready. Brinley had her 9month check up and she didn't gain any weight. She was and always has been a really happy girl. She gets cranky at moments and has her times where she melts down, but the past few weeks it has become more so. The last two days with bottles of the last bit of breast milk I had frozen and her formula she is so very happy. I guess she wasn't getting enough of what I was lacking to offer her.


It will make things easier for going out and for vacations and for times where I would love an adult beverage. The fact is, it's over and I do miss it.